heaven,earth and hell

looking at the bright side

2008-06-15T14:22:58Z

being taken for granted can be a compliment. it means that you've become a comfortable, trusted element in another person's life.

shoot bang bang

2008-06-11T11:01:05Z

always fucking ignored by a fatso

reasons why fingers are better

2008-06-11T10:49:39Z

please dont be oh sooo green and disguted :) hahaha

1.you always know where your fingers have been
2.for variety, you have ten to choose from
3.they don't get tired before you do...
4.you don't have to smile at them afterwards
5.you don't have to get out of bed to fetch them
6.they are also useful *out* of bed
7.You can stop if you want to
8.your fingers don't want to meet your family
9.your fingers don't get jealous
10/your fingers don't smell
11.your fingers won't just fall asleep afterwards
12.your fingers don't want you to meet *their* family
13.you don't get jealous of your fingers
14.your fingers don't mind if you fall asleep afterwards
15.your fingers won't let you down (got this from a friend)
16/your fingers don't want to watch a movie or do some other stuff instead
17.your mother won't critisize your fingers
18.you CAN'T get pregnant from your fingers
19.your fingers don't need batteries
20.people aren't surprised to find you have them
21.they don't shrink afterwards (based on experience, finger dont get paranoid after hahaha)
22.you always have them with you
23.you can chew on them when you are nervous (woo~)
24.you can use more than 1 at a time
25.they are agile
26.they'll never leave you
27.YOU CAN ALSO USE THEM TO CLEAN THE WAX OUT OF YOUR EARS
28.they want to when you want to
29.they are easy to clean
30.if the ones you are using get tired, you can switch to some of the others(right??hahaha)
31.they don't demand acrobatics in bed
32.they don't want to try out stuff they heard from friends (or saw in porn)
33.you can use them to try out stuff *you* heard from friends without worrying about it going horribly wrong
34.they don't look worried when *you* want acrobatics in bed
35.your fingers don't give you bite-marks (Addition: unless you *like* bite-marks)
36.you can share them with a friend (my lesbian side.kidding)
37.fingers don't cheat on you
38.fingers don't have hidden wifes/girlfriends/husbands/boyfriends/children
39/your fingers don't yelp when you give them bite marks
40.for variety you can paint them any colour you want?
41.it's not suspicious if you take them to the toilet with you
42.since they come on 2 hands, you can use them on 2 places at the same time
43.they write your e-mail for you
44.they're compatible with a wide range of leather goods and electrical appliances
45.no one ever fell in love with their fingers(LOL)
46.they'll change the video channel for you
47.you can use them to write down your fantasy and share it with people
48.they won't ask: Am I the first?
49.ou can type with them (although I'd rather like to see a man... *whistle*)
50.THEY WON'T BE DISGUSTED WHEN YOU HAVE YOUR PERIOD
51.they don't snore, fart, burp or have smelly breath!!
52.they don't want you to swallow

uh?whatelse? wooot~

taxi para taxi

2008-06-04T09:11:29Z

haha wala lang naalala ko lang na nakatipid ako ngayong umaga. kasi di ako nagtaxi. hahaha nakakainis kasi malaki ata balat ko sa pwet eh kasi tuwing sasakay ako sa taxi yung masisiba yung mga nasasakyan ko! yung super mga taga sa metro amp. pero pinaka nang-galaiti talaga ko nung isang beses (may 29'o8) mga 8 am nagtaxi ako, usually pag matanda na yung driver mababait at di nandadaya, i mean matino yung metro pero shit. i was wrong. haha grbe simula concorde gang buendia 112.50 grbe eh ang usual na pamasahe ko pag ganon 65-75 yung na yung mahal.naasar ako kaya nung dumating sa buendia di ko binayaran lahat 80 lang binayad ko tapos pag baba ko sabi ko "pucha manong tanda tanda nyo na nangdadaya pa kayo."

nakakadisapoint naman kasi talaga akala ko kung sino yung matanda yun yung matitino kasi matanda na sila..alam mo yun dapat kung malapit ka ng matigok dapat mabait ka na. kasi mamatay ka na.grrr nakakainis talaga. nakakainis kasi umagang umaga nandurugas na ng kapwa.mga tao talaga tumandang walang pinagkatandaan! hay..buti pa yung ibang tao may konsensya.tssss.

kung bakit kasi may balat ako sa pwet haha laging malas ako sa pag-para ng taxi.yung mga mandaraya pa nasasakyan. owel, bsta frunds. ingat sa pagsakay ng taxi. ang kamay ng drayber ay kelangan nasa manibela lang at dun sa ano nga bang tawag dun? yung mga primera, segunda.etc. at yung metro kung mxadong mabilis ang metro wag na kayo magbayad takbuhan nyo nlng. :)

a journey with purpose

2008-05-29T11:54:03Z

the purpose driven life by rick warren is more than a book (well for me, haha) it is actually a guide to 40-day spiritual journey that will enable you to discover the answers to life's most important question: What on earth am i here for? (haha actually am not yet done reading the book. but somehow it helped me)

i want the pieces of my life fit together.. and i would like to agree that having this perspective will reduce your stress, simplify your decisions, increase your satisfaction, and most important, prepare you for eternity.

well, i just want to share some phrases i wrote while reading the book. i dont know, but i find it inspiring and moving, thats why i want to share it with you guys :) ill update this entry after i finish reading the book :)

** to worry yourself to death with resentment would be a foolish, senseless thing to do.

**many people are drive by the need for approval.they allow the expectations of parents or spouses or children or teachers or friends to control their lives. many adults are still trying to earn the approval of unpleasable parents.others are driven by peer pressure, always worried by what others might think. unfortunately, those who follow the crowd usually get lost in it.

**one key to failure is to try to please everyone.

**forces that can drive your life but all lead to the same dead end: UNUSED POTENTIAL, UNNECESSARY STRESS, AND AN UNFULFILLED LIFE.

**when life has meaning, you can bear almost anything; without it,nothing is bearable.

** the greatest tragedy is not death, but life without purpose.

**YOU WEREN'T PUT ON EARTH TO BE REMEMBERED YOU WERE PUT HERE TO PREPARE FOR ETERNITY.

**remember, each of us will stand personally before the judgement seat of God..yes,each of us will have to give a personal account to God.

**life on earth is just the dress rehearsal before the real production.

**there more to life than just here and now.

**life is a mist, a fast runner, a breath, and a wisp of smoke (i agree!)

**for we were born but yesterday..our days on earth are as transient as a shadow.

**compared with eternity,life is extremely brief

_ciao

Kaiji-anime awesome

2008-05-29T02:12:53Z

what to say about Kaiji... it's an extremely inventive anime, one of the thinks i noticed at first was the art style, which, from what i've seen, tends to turn people off, in reality, i quite enjoy the art style, it's unique, it's inventive, and it just suits the story, the people look real, there isn't an army of gorgeous women or model-standard men, no, this is the main appeal of Kaiji for me: relatability, it's real, this is the kind of situation that most everyone finds themselves in at one point or another, Kaiji has hit rock bottom and has been backed into a corner with nowhere to turn, this pain is portrayed outstandingly and articulately, this entire series was written and produced amazingly, and it is certainly one of my favorites.

the story of Kaiji is surely original, it's about gambling and desperation, two themes which aren't really explored much in anime, but which proved to be amazingly interesting. As I have already stated, the relatability of Kaiji was a big draw for me, he's got nothing, he's in his own personal hell, but, despite this, he strives to release himself from the all-consuming debt that he has gotten himself into.

this is a classic underdog story with an emotional and modern twist, Kaiji is not a natural gambler, he loses constantly to his perfectly average friends, but, driven to his limits, with everything on the line, he unlocks abilities he never knew existed.

Kaiji is an incredible story of a man trying to overcome the odds to rebuild his shattered life.

-maelstorm divide

relationship 101

2008-05-13T08:32:28Z

relationship 101: theres always a possibility that a person can get attracted to another, its human nature. its not wrong. but the reason why you are in a commitment is for you to discipline yourself.one may get attracted to numerous prospects and its okay. as long as you dont nurse the feeling. and wont do something about it. the borderline between cheating and faithfulness is to recognize the reality that you already have the person that can give you more than what you can get from cheap thrills of attraction.

good times

2008-05-05T06:25:51Z

well work's great! am certified now. haha hello pst! so much for diet! hahaha

goodbye extempos and goodbye recording!

btw, below is a picture of one of our scripts for the recording. i got 10 mistakes lol

end of the hypocrisy avenue

2008-04-03T19:05:43Z

a thought to ponder.. "wag mong bibitawan ang ayaw mong hawakan ng iba"

am a bitch.and you know that.

2008-03-27T19:39:12Z

go find yer mommeh f*ckng stalker! before i stab yer eyes and give it to odie.hahaha

**psycho mode:ON*

if what yer saying is true that yer good at dota. dang. am way better than you, bitch. kidding. but actually. am not kidding. hahaha

fyi.am not insecure am just a lil annoyed.

but still am praying for world peace

oye

2008-03-16T16:34:57Z

kaya ko maging tanga. kaya ko din maging under. pero mabilis akong masawa kung ganon ng ganon.

random: at this point..

2008-03-15T17:11:12Z

everyone or anyone becomes a traitor.

even yer most trusted friend.

lies and deceptions.

we can't help it.

haha who knows what am thinking?

maybe you! you! **points the finger in the air**

nah i just need a big hug.

anyway, random-ness again.

**puffs**

be nice to those who smoke coz every cigarette might be their last. **toinks**

**buga**

**and am duing teh finger again** ..!..

i love it.paker.

woooosh uber and out.

star buko!

2008-03-14T04:51:54Z

oye. me and some of friends are still looking for a part-time job. gah.

here are some of the jobs we are considering haha (considering? lol)

1. star bucks (woo am out i hate coffee haha)
2. powerbooks
3. epacific-call center
4. abenson haha

random..
**krisa's wondering why oh why?** :P

how come most of my friends want to work at star bucks?

parang jollibee and mcdo lang naman magiging work nila dun and they will receive almost the same salary. yes. the same salary. kase i asked one of my friends who worked there before.pareho lang. anyway, teh only difference on my opinion, at star bucks, they cater for semi class A, and class B and some "pasosyal" (social climbers inshort) customers. while at mcdo and jollibee they cater the "masa"

anyway, i dont know if am making sense. wala lng random-ness honeh :P

_aja

tis is not so true!

2008-02-07T13:21:49Z

BLAH BLAH BLAH I AM 20 YEARS OLD ALREADY! HAHAHA SCREW THIS QUIZ! :p

people take things 100 different ways.

2007-12-26T11:48:22Z

“Instead of warning pregnant women not to drink, I think female alcoholics should be told not to fuck”

sometimes you just cant tell someone how you feel.not because you dont trust them and not because they will think that yer weird. but because you can never really find the right words to make them understand.it makes you frustrated. people take things 100 different ways. and that's why its so hard.but if what yer trying to say is meant to be said..it will find a way to be understood.

mm..random thoughts.

and oh look the font is pink! lol :P

the smart girl's guide to surviving a breakup

2007-11-24T14:59:30Z

who stole my magic?(the smart girl's guide to surviving a breakup) its a cosmo book by jenny manuel..
mm..i read this book a month ago..nothing..gusto ko lng share sa iba ung mga nabasa ko.. :) tis book has been written for women trying to come to terms with a difficult breakup. there was once a time in my life when i had my heart, quite unexpectedly, broken into so many pieces that i felt sure that like Humpty Dumpty the pieces would never be put back together again. actually i told this to rex or emishi already (not sure kung cno sa kanila) kse un exactly ung nafeel ko nun.. pero im really happeh now! gusto ko lng tlga ishare sa iba ung mga smart moves.. haha i know tis is korni pero walang kokontra! :)

**admit that the relationship is over. say it loud to yourself in the mirror,or write about it in detail to a close friend or a family member who knew you and your ex as a couple.telling someone else,if you havent already, is a sign that you admit that the breakup is real.

**and then cry, shout, kick the walls, hit a punching bag -- do whatever you need to do to release all the negative energy smoldering inside you.. (siyet nagwwork tlga to! btw, tnx ulet kna rex, dru at emishi! kse di nila ko iniwan! love you mga tunay na kaibigan!)

**think about whom among your friends or family members are going to be the most gentle and supportive of you during this period and then ask them for their help. be honest about how you feel -- talk to them and dont be afraid to cry (agree!pero mas okay sa kaibigan magsbi kesa sa family members haha usually kse masesermonan ka lng pag sa knla eh hahaha) its okay to be a wreck -- for a while

"dont ever be sorry for being sad. and dont apologize for crying. what you are going through is completely normal and healthy."

**if you really must ask "why" then put a positive spin to it. rather than asking yourself why you arent good enough, why not seek to find out why you are might be better off alone or with someone else?

**ask your thee most supportive friends to list down the top five things that make you special.

**bonus: you'll uncover what others think of as special about you, if they hadnt yet told you about it.

"dont bother asking why"

**create your own happy music CD featuring your favorite upbeat tracks.banish all sad music from your life until your heart is healed. Big bonus: never underestimate the healing powers of keeping busy -- you'll have less time to uselessly recall good times with your ex.ako? may pagka weird ako eh..nung time na un i listened to eisley and the used..and other emotive songs.kaya..

whatever you do, dont listen to any sad songs or music. it will only make you feel worse. -okay?!

**treat yourself to a magical makeover. bring a close friend along and turn the day into a fun, girly outing. if budgets are tight, then create your own spa at home. there is an abundance of good do-it-yourself hair coloring,facial and body scrubbing kits. put on some relaxing music, bring out the aromatherapy candles, dim the lights, lie back and put the cucumber slices over your eyes and you've got your very own spa sanctuary. (nung ako, i tried to color my hair red! hahaha kaso di kta pag walang ilaw T_T oh anyway, hehe)

"beauty may only be skin deep and true beauty might lie in the soul, but it doesnt hurt to have your outsides looking good when your insides are badly bruised"

**write a list of all the things you resent about your ex and your relationship.make sure to include every lie he ever told and every action he ever did that caused you pain. (Plus, everything he did not do, that caused you pain).

**study the list and try and understand what may have motivated the actions. you might come to realize that many of the things he did were done not out of malice but out of fear, insensitivity or ignorance.

**accept that what happened in the past can no longer affect you unless you let it and, if possible, forgive the person for hurting you.

**finally, burn the list! let the burning be a symbol of your release -- from any pain and bitterness that the affair may have caused you (also, you dont want to one day be reminded of your grief if you come across this list in some near-forgotten file) as the list burns repeat to yourself that you are free.

"dont be bitter" -- naalala ko tuloy ung sinabi skn ni nica na parang ang bitter ko pa din daw. kse nakita nya ung mga picture ko sa friendster. pero un.. bsta..im okay now! woohoo!

**plan a magical trip to somewhere special. if time and money will allow it, then go to the place you have always dreamed of visiting. try and find some like-minded companions to travel with you. or do the trip on your own.

**if you do decide to travel alone make sure to do your research; consult guidebooks and travel websites and talk to people with experience and knowledge of the place.make sure that your destination is both safe and suitable for women to travel solo. leave nothing to chance.

**and once youve done all the planning then GET PACKING! --mm..ako sobrang big help nung pumunta kmi sa subic.. masarap kse ung may time ka magmuni-muni mag isa.. (salamat sa tiangge!) haha and isa pang sobrang big help ung bahay ni rex! hahaha nung sembreak feeling ko second bahay ko un eh. inum inum with dru en emishi pag hapon hahaha :)) salamat!

"travel, go somewhere you've never been. you need to get away from you immediate surroundings and realize that there is a huge world out there with endless possibilities and billions of people that youve never met"

**give your bedroom a dose of good feng shui by clearing out all clutter and making sure your furniture is in the right place.some of the basic rules of bedroom feng shui: (actually di ako naniniwala sa mga ganito eh.or baka dahil sobrang tamad ko.hehe pero since sinabi sa book ge share ko na din senyo hehe

-never position your bed directly in front of a door as doorways and passages supposedly remove energy. if your room is too small,you can correct this by either putting a screen in between your bed or your door or perhaps a set of hanging beads from the top of your door frame.

-always make sure that the headboard of your bed is up against a solid wall as it gives one a sense of security and support while sleeping. however,your bed should never be up against a wall shared with a bathroom/toilet or up against a window as bathrooms and windows can supposedly drain you of positive energy while sleeping.

-try and create symmetry in your room. if you are looking for love and companionship seek to fill your room with pairs of objects -- two plants opposite corners, matching lamps. etc.

**ultimately i believe that creating good feng shui is about creating a space that you are happy with. a good and thorough clear-out of your room can be a symbolic but no less effective way of declaring that you are ready for a fresh start.

"when you lock yourself in your room -- miserable and weepy -- the space picks up the negative energy and room becomes a depressing place to be. you need to let out the sadness and allow some new air in."

**find yourself something you can be passionate about.consider enrolling in a course -- there are classes to suit every interest under the sun, from wine tasting to french to yoga to chairmaking. try and think of any friends that you might have hobbies that they are particularly keen on and ask if they will act as your guide and mentor.

"find a new passion"

**co-dependency, a word originally used to describe spouses or relatives of alcoholics and substance addicts, is used today to refer to people who allow others to treat them badly, who try to find their happiness in other people instead of the only place they really can -- themselves. in order to candidly assess the emotional maturity of your relationship, ask yourself the following questions:

    1. when you were together did you and your ex do the things that you liked to do -- or did you
        mostly do the things that he enjoyed?if not, then why not?
    2. did your ex treat you with respect and courtesy?if not, why not?
    3. do you believe that you can be happy without a partner in your life?if not, why not?
    4. do you believe that you are in the process of becoming the best person that you can be? if
        not,why not?
    5. do you like yourself?if not, why not?

if you answered NO to any of the above questions you may likely be co-dependent to some degree. co-dependent people have a greater tendency to get involved in relationships with people who are perhaps unreliable, emotionally unavailable or needy. once in these relationships the co-dependent person tries to provide for everything within the relationship without addressing their own needs or desires; setting themselves up for continued lack of fulfillment.

you need to be aware of this and address this issue, perhaps with the help of counseling, before you seek to enter into a new relationship because if the problem is not recognized or addressed it will recycle and continue into each new relationship.

recovery from co-dependency is about learning how to become more fulfilled and feel better about oneself so the sooner one gets on to the road to recovery the better.

"sometimes, if you are having difficulty coming to terms with something, all you need to do is to take a step back and look at the bigger picture."

**open your telephone/contacts book and call any old friends that you have lost touch with. call them and arrange to meet; otherwise,have a friendly catch-up over the phone.

**organize a New Blood Party.call all your most fun and spirited friends and invite them to a party with strict instructions that they should bring with them a friend that you have never met.by the end of the party you will know twice as many people.

"being single doesnt have to be about being alone"

every girl has a story to tell, but everyone agrees -- sure, its hard to do,but its definitely not impossible to overcome.. and it all begins with knowing you can have fun again..